Ugh, vent vent vent. I just realize I have like people on here. Ughhhhh. Vent. Song of the day Wait For You by Elliot Yamin <3 This makes me so sad. But I’m glad the guy is doing the waiting rather then the girl. Ugh, I need to study. Wanna go home. At saw grass mall. OoOo cutie. Sooo random thought here if peraon a knows bout person b, how would person a react? In all fairness were just friends me and person B. And all fairness person A, were just friends too. But what I wanted to ask you how is kissing suppose to feel?
So, many people. But it’s not like they can always be there ya know. Shit happens. People have to leave.
But her name is urvashi singh. And she is an amazing cousin, one of the best <3. Than, theres sabrina singh <3 another cousin. Then, angela <3 my best friend and lil sis. Helen Kennedy, my polish amazing friend Gabby lipper, ahh knew her since the 2nd grade. There’s delecia hall, she gets me through the tough times. Renoka singh <3 And now theres samantha king. She hasnt judged me yet. thanks you guys <3
Why am I so messed up in the head? I have sweethearts coming to me and giving me reasons to try. Reasons to care. Like the amazing and most sweetest guys. And I mess up. I turn them down. And of course I go on complaining and wanting the most idiotic, jackahole guys. And I leave the sweet, innocent ones. For what it’s worth, I’m sorry, sincerely. But like it’s better to turn you down now right? At least before I break you? Right? It’s not that I base on looks, but rather personalities. I like you before and than you leave and I’m alone. So, why bother trying? If I can’t accept you now, than don’t leave. I do need someone to heal me but I just can’t try now. Show me you won’t leave be my friend. I’m sorry I’m so messed up. I’m sorry I can’t accept you. I’m sorry I hate commitments. I’m sorry seriously :(
“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, It’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life’s realities.”—
One day not long ago Lord Yama, the lord of death, was walking the Earth collecting the souls that were due to move on that day. Time and again doors were shut in his face, people ran away, and crying and begging happened, all in an effort to forestall death but none could stop the inevitable.
A song that really makes me feel something is the song unbelievable by craig david <3 It’s about love but not just any love, love that he almost missed. Love that makes him happy. Love that’s special. Just simple and plan love.
Airplanes by Travis Garland. How could you not cry?
I love how on tumblr I can tell my deepest, darkest secrets. Like my own diary. Like how I’m scared of going insane in my house. I’m scared of being an idiot, falling short from the tree and coming out unhappy and miserable. How I regret breaking up with this one kid and now he’s leaving. So, goodbye to anything we could of had. Goodbye to maybe all the feelings I had for him. Those feelings weren’t a lot but they could’ve been something. Now I know better, to try.
I hate New York for over-reacting when they are worse situations. Get over your petty problems, and just deal with it. In japan they live with those little tremors. Stop acting like the sky is falling. And now this hurricane don’t joke. Florida has had worse. Get over it. And I hate you for dis-reapecting me. Maybe it’s my fault but still. When I tell you no it’s no. It means stop asking me and putting me in a difficult situation such as that one. If you respect me you’d acknowledge the fact I said no. That I said I can’t because I’ll gett hurt. Emotionally and mentally. I know myself better than you do. I know what I want and you apparently don’t. Ugh.
As for my rentals please stop telling me what I can and can’t do. & don’t try now cause you keep missing the point and going about it the wrong way. Smh. Pleae auntie of mine, mind your own business. Can’t wait till your kids are grown x)
Day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all
Hmmm…. I believe in angels. & since I believe in angels, I might as well believe in demons. & if angels and demons are real why not faeries who are supposively offsprings of angels and demons. With the faces of angels but the attitude of demons. & if demons exist why not werewolves who are supposively humans that are effected by a type of demons. And vampires too. Lets not forget the wacky supernaturals. You know the humans that can do unnatural things. Superhumans.
I believe in magic, like why not. I believe in karma and every other nonsense you can’t think of.
And when it comes to believing in god, i’ll believe in him, her or it. But I don’t know if there is or isn’t but where on our own.
Meredith: There is a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasnt because I thought I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don’t have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever …” -Meredith from Grey’s Antomy
Why? Because I don’t believe in love nor unconditional love. And if it’s real, well then I’d run from it.
Ahh! Stop asking me impossible questions. Not that, something else. Anything else. Just not that. Ugh, I hate the emotions going through my head. There swirlin around like stupid Hurricane Irene. Ugh, your an idiot! For asking stupid things like that when I’d just rather be with you. Just you. No one else. Ugh! Stupid emotions. Go die. Fudge. Chocolate. Monkey. Moron. Idiot. Fudge. Say something so I can hate you already. Stop doing sweet things. Stop, just stop. Wah!
Day 12: the best advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given
Most of my advice or I guess my best quotes are from anime <3 or manga. Cartoons basically. They reflect the human heart in them, thats the only reason I can sit down and enjoy these shows. If not then I’d just be hooked on other rubish. But here’s some of my beat advice.
"Mistakes arent made by locking your feelings away and holding back. They’re made while wearing your heart on your sleeve." - Fairy Tail
I think this is so true, if you don’t wear your heart on your sleeve you would hurt yourself either way. You’ll become numb and avert your eyes away from the truth. Things would be difficult but at the same time I understand how hard it is to wear your heart on your sleeve. It could get crushed or smashed. Things could happen.
"if you dont have the courage to change things then you might as well die" -Natsu
True! Change first starts with yourself. So, if you can’t change yourself then you might as well not live life.
”The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainity “
Yes, because the futuriais always changing. No matter what you can’t predict the future because it’s alwys changing. Different outcomes.
"we may be weak but we just have to be, if not then we wouldn’t have any reason to grow, to get strong."
This just happens to motivate me.
Yes, its very convient and even at times it consumes us. Texting is a part of our lives. Its more time efficient and it allows for a soundless environment well almost. But sadly our lives have been consumed with our phones. We relay on it to convey words we’d never say out loud or in person. And that is exactly why I hate it so much. You can say whatever bullshit through a text or online conversation but not on the phone or in person. I’m not like this at all. Whatever I say online or through a computerized screen I’d say to your face. But I get even more mad when you dont reply. You don’t react, you might as well be in human. Immune to such. Shaking my head. Thanks.
Dear you I regret breaking up with you. I regret not trying. I regret not taking you back. I regret not telling you all of this beforehand. But because of all that when you said your leaving I wanted to try. I guess this is my karma. Right? I’m sorry for being a jerk atm and telling you all this. but lets face it your an equal asshole. So it kind of even out the playing fields. But I want to stop caring right now. You can’t come back. I can’t care. So have a nice life. bye. NOTE I really don’t want you to leave. but its an oh well kinda thing so say something. Oh, and this is what I mean’t bout getting hurt heh. Whoops. Anything? Nothing? I guess that works too.
Your psychological nature is adaptive and receptive, the exact opposite of the sign of Virgo whose very essence is to thoroughly analyze each thing, thus creating a permanent duality between the self and the outside world: conversely, Pisces absorb and wipe out any form of differentiation; with Pisces, there can be no opposition, no conflict, no individual reaction. There is only fusion, non-separation, perpetual and mobile spreading of the self over some sort of blurred but huge feeling of sympathy with the environment. It is the supreme reign of feelings and emotions over the intellect and its separating reason.
With this Ascendant, you come across as emotional, sensitive, dedicated, adaptable, nice, wild, compassionate, romantic, imaginative, flexible, opportunist, intuitive, impossible to categorized, irrational, seductive, placid, secretive, introverted, pleasant, artistic, and charming. But you may also be indecisive, moody, confused, wavering, lazy, scatterbrained, vulnerable, unpredictable and gullible.
I avoid some people on purpose I’ve thought about cheating I hate the way I look most of the time I actually like the way I look most of the time I’ve been swimming in an ocean I’ve been swimming in a lake I have a sibling I have pets I’ve been on vacation recently I love meeting new people I am insanely shy I’m on a sports team My best friend is a boy
I hate my mom and dad
I play music I don’t remember the last time I mailed a letter I talk on the phone (almost) every night I drink milk almost every day I like to read I like to watch tv
I could care less about video games I’ve had a crush on someone for 5+ years
I’ve never asked someone out I can touch my nose with my tongue I love pizza I actually love going grocery shopping I love to travel I’ve been to another continent I wish I had time to watch more movies I miss being a little kid I’ve been to a public pool recently Summer is my favorite time of the year Winter is my favorite time of the year I have a favorite holiday I have a favorite holiday other than Christmas I’ve been to a concert recently I drive I have my own car My room is almost always messy I’m listening to music right now Music helps me work The last person I texted was a boy I want a new phone really bad I love cartoons The last thing I drank was water I used to play with barbies I collect something (or used to) I’ve been to a carnival recently I need to charge my phone I have a huge crush on someone right now I’m in my pajamas I have to go to school tomorrow I need to clean something I’ve thrown up on purpose I’ve broken a bone I’m an extremely picky eater I’ve eaten something weird I’ve been out to eat recently I love going to the mall shopping I hate big groups I remember the last party I went to I’m on the phone right now (I wish) I’m watching tv right now I’m eating right now I’m on the phone, watching tv, and eating right now I’ve been told I’m funny I’ve been told I’m pretty I’ve been told that I have gorgeous eyes I need new clothes really bad My hair is up right now I need to shave my legs I remember the last time I went to the doctor I have braces I actually use my locker at school I get good grades I have a MySpace I have a Facebook I spy with my little eye something that is green I spy with my little eye something that is round I spy with my little eye something that is broken I’ve had surgery Someone I know has died Someone I know has had cancer It’s past my bedtime I’ve moved before I’ve moved 4+ times I’ve gotten something removed People tell me that they like my clothes I wish I had some money right now I have a job I need a job I actually got a stupid class ring I’m listening to someone talking right now I wish I could talk to the boy I like/love right now I’ve kissed someone in front of my parents I’ve kissed someone on New Year’s I love Halloween I remember the last time I tripped I can see a picture of me from where I’m sitting I can see my reflection from where I’m sitting I’m kinda scared of the dark It’s hard to sleep with the door open It’s hard to sleep without a blanket It’s morning I played soccer when I was little I played basketball when I was little My ears are pierced My belly button is pierced I plan on getting married I plan on going to college I plan on having some kids I babysit I still get an allowance I curse a lot I got so drunk last night I’ve been to a wedding recently I’ve met someone special on vacation I have an accent I’m completely white I know someone who has been home-schooled I know someone in a band I can sing really well I can dance really well I’ve never slow danced with anyone I suck at spelling I suck at math I recycle I know some rednecks I want to get a tattoo I want to get a new piercing I hate MTV and VH1 I still love an ex I miss an ex I’ve slapped someone I’ve punched someone I’ve been told that I have a nice butt I can speak another language I am fluent in another language I can play the piano I’ve been told that I can’t dance I’m a cheerleader I have a sweet tattoo I have a sweet facial piercing I need to practice something I want to go to Mexico I want to go to Canada I’ve traveled across the country I went to the beach last summer I remember the last time I was insanely sunburned I like to waste time I like to sleep I think I’m going to get asked out soon I keep a journal I don’t remember the last dream I had My first kiss kinda sucked I think smoking cigarettes is gross I’m wearing something that belongs to someone else My mom fixed the last meal I had I should be doing homework right now I’m adopted I love horror movies I love musicals I’ve seen a broadway show The last person I hugged was my mom/dad All of my grandparents are alive I miss my boyfriend I haven’t talked to my best friend all day People tell me that I’m short Sometimes my socks don’t match I can’t wait till my birthday I’m a procrastinator I like strawberries I like thunderstorms Someone’s mad at me right now I hate when people are rude I’m an optimist My first relationship ended badly I love when boys hold doors open I’ve kissed 2+ people in one day I bite my nails I’ve been caught doing drugs I’ve been caught cheating I haven’t been to Disneyland/Disneyworld I’ve passed out from drinking I get angry easily I hate most girls I love getting new shoes I hate Chinese food I’ve been in love before I don’t remember the last time I was grounded I’ve been cheated on There are certain songs that remind me of my ex I straighten my hair more often than i should I’ve been to a funeral this year I am insanely hungry right now I liked this survey a lot I should probably do something productive